I told myself not to share my downs on my blog, because this is a place where I want to only spread positivity and things I love. But I figure this would help!
Today I've been feeling rather down. Okay, maybe for the past two days, ever since school's started. I'm not sure why I'm feeling like this, it's like there is no reason for my bitterness.
I've had a great holiday. Not that I went out often at all, spending my time with my friends, heck I've even stayed away from my family quite much (do not do this, not saying that i don't feel bad) but it's been nice to isolate myself from people. i steered away from my friends through social media, hardly replying their messages haha sorry!
I realized that I really needed that sort of break from everyone.
However now, back in school I find myself having a hard time to fit in, as if socializing became a tough thing to do. I have no idea what to talk about, I bury myself in my novel, mixing only with my closest friends but in all honesty, I don't feel quite like myself.
To add on, going back to school meant I had duties to handle and tasks to complete. I'm not completely back in the mood to do so just yet. Bearing the role as a leader, I know my obligation to lead them but I just can't pick myself up from this slump.
SPM is a few months away and with teachers pushing us to start on our studies, it makes me want to avoid it more. My motivation is depleted, my homework left aside for the last minute. I hardly ever do this anymore since January this year.
Even though, yes I admit that I'm mentally unstable at the moment, we all have those days but I know I'm NOT going to let myself be this way. Pushing myself bit by bit, I know that I'll be okay in no time but sometimes we've gotta let ourselves loose.
If you're stressed out till the point where you can't handle, tell yourself to STOP whatever you're doing and take a deep breathe.
Stop forcing ourselves to get back into the swing of things, if you really can't. Forgive yourself and give yourself a few extra days of break, you will benefit in the long run. (Although I've had a two-week-holiday but I'm still not back in the mood.)
Do what you love, put your responsibilities aside. Based on experience, I tend to be more focus after giving myself enough time to rest. My heart and mind will then be set to do things with much more efficiency.
A little disclaimer- unless it's really something important and you have a due date, try doing the small things first then gradually get yourself into the hard stuff. Currently I'm doing my bio worksheet and I need to draw a freaking graph ugh but yeah; tomorrow I'll be working on my essay which is due on Friday.
But most of the time, I've spent my time reading. I'm glad to say that I've accomplished much more reading I could have in just two weeks! So far, it's been a great escape from reality.
Of course, set a limit to when you've gotta stop and start working your butt off. I've decided to allow myself slack until this Sunday and start up my engine and burn burn burn. Put all distractions aside, and complete things. The sense of satisfaction ah I love.
Back to the topic, I think the way to free your soul from feeling stressed is to rest. Once feeling calm, things will turn out for the better, maybe better from what you've expected.
I hope this helps! I'm feeling better after writing this tbh (:
Much love,
Hannah x
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